OK…I think I’ve established that I hate winter. I hate the snow, the cold…et al…infinitely. All of that…the cold, the lack of smell, the lack of abundant color…the things you can physically see, smell and feel…are just one bottomless crater in my feelings about winter.
“So, Biff,” said the fox, “what else chills you about winter?”
“Good, one, fox,” said J, the notorious blood-sucking editor, as he laughed.
Oh shit. They’re back. I can’t even wallow in self pity by myself. And the fox was wearing a fox fur coat. “Oh, come on, fox,” I said. “You’re definitely related to that coat on some level.”
“I like to keep my ancestors close,” said the fox through a terrifying smile. If you’ve never seen a fox smile…don’t.
So, Biff,” said J, “I’m working on another anthology.”
Shit, I thought, more sleepless nights. More calls in the dead of the darkness: “Write, Biff, write. Need stories. Need your pain. Need your suffering.”
This is how editors talk to writers…even the editors that write.
“A…another…anthology?” I mumbled, lips quaking, sweat rolling.
“Yep,” said J. “It’s going to be a Twisted Tails anthology. I’m calling it Twisted Tails: The Ultimate Pain.”
“I like it,” said the fox. “It has a pizzazz ring to it. Does Biff get to suffer?”
“He sure does,” said J. “But that’s OK. Biff likes to suffer. It gives him an excuse to wallow in self pity. Right, Biff?”
I felt like a fly caught between a steaming pile of shit and a Snickers bar. But I wasn’t going to let the sinister editor get the best of me. “I wallow…therefore I am!” I blurted. Wondering as the words came out of my mouth…wtf.
The fox and J laughed for hours. And hours. Into days and nights and weeks. They laughed for weeks as I wallowed. “You guys almost finished?” I said.
They immediately stopped laughing and stared at me, straight-faced. “You don’t like the sound of laughter?” said J.
“You hate laughter?” said the fox.
I wasn’t taking any more of this shit. “CAN WE GET BACK TO WINTER?” I suggested.
The fox and J looked at each other, shrugged their shoulders and said together, “OK, Biff, winter.”
I took a deep breath, composed myself, took another deep breath, composed myself some more and said, “It’s like death.”
Simultaneously, the fox and J yawned.
“C’mon guys,” I said. “Look around! Everything’s covered in a shroud of snow. A shroud! There’s no smell, no warmth…nobody’s wearing shorts and t-shirts. No sandals. The beaches are closed. The swimming pools are empty. The outdoor patios for every bar and coffee shop in town are closed. As far as I can see, there’s not a single happy blade of grass. Winter is death and death is winter and all I want to do is wallow in self pity and cry for every blade of grass buried under a shroud of snow. And I want to put on shorts and sandals and a t-shirt, curl up under my bed and wait for spring.”
“Whoa,” said J. “That was good wallow, Biff. Are those tears in your eyes?
“Yep,” said the fox. “Biff’s crying. Ah…Biff…did we make you cry?”
They laughed again. For days and weeks. Laughed as a tsunami of tears washed over my face. “And my money tree died,” I said.
The fox and J looked at my dead money tree, browned with death and wondering, “Wtf?” And they laughed some more.